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im so scared

hi im a newbie
ive been so ill for ages now and ive had blood tests done but not got results back yet, im probably hopefully just not well but ive got the most unbeleivable long hair and have for the past two years had vivid dreams of losing my hair to cancer and treatment, some people may think this sounds strange but ive never had a vivid dream not happen, family misfortunes, accidents even the premature birth of my second child before i even fell pregnant call me phsycic! i dont know i cant explain how strong my feelings can be ive had deja vu since early childhood , in my last pregnancy i kept having low platelet counts and they monitored my blood and it kept going through my mind then have i got some kind of cancer.

well for the last 6 months ive had constant periods hardly a break at all ive been putting it down to the fact i got sterilised or maybe its an infection of some sort, but then for last two weeks ive been feeling not well i cant explain it and im aching all over loads of joint pain and sore chest sweating alot im walking about like its summer yet ive not got a fever if anything my temp is below normal 34degrees so i dont see it being flu then 3 days ago late on in the afternoon i suddenly started having loads of bruises appearing all over my arms and legs (mind you ive always bruised easily) but i didnt fall or bump myself as id been snuggled in bed watching tv most of the day. i went to the doctor and she ordered blood test im probably getting myself worked up over nothing but i cant help but fear the worst i need reassuring but i feel like my friends and family will make me feel worse theyre always having a joke about the fact if i was a horse theyd shoot me as im always not well. i cant sleep tonight worrying about it

I'm sorry that you're feeling so scared, I remember how frightened I was while I was waiting for the results of my blood tests. Please try & stay calm, you don't really know what you're up against until you get your results. Where do you live? Even if they do discover that you have CML, treatments have come a long way these last few years - just look at us all on the site, we're living proof of it! Some people have had CML for 15- 20 years & they're able to lead normal lives.
When will you get your results? Please let us know, we've all been in the same situation & we understand how you feel,
please stay strong
Barbara

However hard it is, and it is hard, Barbara is right. You have to wait for the results of the blood tests and that is inevitably a really worrying time. When my wife, Val, had her first blood tests and then a bone marrow biopsy, we were worried sick. So everyone who posts here has some idea how you feel just now. If the tests show you have CML, you will have a big learning curve about it. One thing is for sure, you can post here any time you like about anything, however big or small, and you will get quick responses from lots of great people who know so much about CML.

Try to keep as calm as you can waiting for the results. I know that is very difficult but the truth is that worrying too much won't make the results come any more quickly. Keep us posted here and, if it is CML, you will get as much help as you ask for. As Barbara says, there are good treatment options now for CML. By the way, if you have CML and you are prescribed Glivec, the most common treatment for CML, you will not lose your hair. Some people report a bit of thinning out of their hair.

Keep us posted with your results and let us know which hospital you are going to.

Try to keep your chin up and take care of yourself.

David

my blood results have come back and once again its a low platelet count but they still cant explain why my platelets keep being so low but yet im ot in the least anemic, ive got to go for other test obviously including smear tests but im still not releived any at my bloods coming back ok as they say does anyone know of any other blood conditions that can cause platelets levels to drop

Hope ur blood test will turns out ok. Be patient and stay calm.