Hi Maggie
Welcome to the club that nobody really wants to be a member of, if we had the choice !!
As Sandy mentions,all of us who log into this site have gone through exactly the same as you have. It does take a while to adjust,but believe me the further away from the day of diagnosis you get, the easier and more normal things become.
This site is great for just browsing and contibuting the odd comment if you wish. The main thing is that the more you read about CML and reviewing peoples experiences, the more you'll realise we are in a good place.
Just try to go about life as normal if you can, take the tablets and don't let it stop you doing anything.
Take Care
PS It may be worth trying to get to the Glasgow CML Patients Meeting on 17th November, if you can.
Dave M