I would like to welcome all of you to this forum. Regarding crashing counts you could look at that phenomena in a positive way..... i.e it mean the drug is doing its job and getting the abnormal CML cells to self destruct. The uncomfortable fact is that these abnormal cells have be reproducing themselves for some time and their ever growing numbers (owing to immortality) means that all the available space that allow for growth of 'normal' cells is diminished over time. Time is the healer here- and as you go on your 'normal' cells will be allowed to replenish their populations. It might take up to a year or even more, but you will get there.
As for the emotional side of diagnosis..... I am still dealing with it 12 years on and some days are better than others. I do not think that one can ever have the same viewpoint about 'life, the universe and everything' after a diagnosis of cancer. However- we are- as CML patients- in a good place re: therapeutic options available and the general prognosis of CML since the revolution of TKI therapy. We -or at least the majority of us- will live out our normal life span.......... maybe not quite as care free as we imagined it to be, but we will get the chance to live it.
Forums like this one have been crucial to my own emotional well being over the last decade.... the internet is so important to cancer patients and will become even more so. Sharing updated information and the common experiences we- as cancer patients have- is the key to survival... both on the physical and the emotional planes.
Keep updating and sharing your stories and experiences here- be determined to live as well as you can, no matter what 'life' throws at you!
Sandy
Ps. If at all possible I recommend that you try your best to attend the upcoming UK CML patient and carer seminar on Saturday January 22nd in Liverpool.
I have seen a copy of the agenda for the day and it looks really interesting........... plus it gives you a chance to meet others who are in the same situation as you are- of have been at some point- and believe me this is the most powerful medicine.