Hi everyone,
It's been a little while now that I have posted or even visited the forum. I got my 4 year result and I am now 0.028% IS so the MMR4 line isn't too far away. So I am delighted with the progress and result and of course extremely grateful for our meds, doctors and the support of this amazing forum.
Like many I started my CML journey in complete an utter terror. 37 years old at the time WBC 330, Platelets 900 or so and bigger than a rugby ball sized spleen. 3 stone weight loss (that I never saw coming) nights sweats, and hard abdomen on the left side. (The main reason I went to the docs).
Started immediatly on Hydroxy for about 3-4 weeks, had a stubborn white count but eventually reduced to 14% before commencing Tasigna (Nilotinib).
Strangly had a low presenting PCR of only 13% (Not clinically significant I am told) and but still in late Chronic phase - consultant estimated I'd had CML for 3 years prior.
Anyway a long story short I and mostly everyone else can relate to the utter dread, fear and upset this disease creates especially in the early days. It's a journey that goes from 0 -150 miles an hour in an instant when you're given that horrible news. (I've never been i'll not had a problem as such, considered myself healthy - smoked a little in late teens and early 20s - normal I would say)
Your mind will play many negative games with you on this journey, ignore them, they aren't real and for the most part aren't reality at all. For the vast majority of people as high as 95% CML is just a managed disease and it is not a killer once you are stable and eventually reach the CCYR line and then MMR. It can take much longer than doctors would like, I did not reach MMR until 2.5 years in, and it was a cause for a lot of stress, anxiety and upset. Hang in there it will happen but not when you want it to. And when it does happen which it will you will put CML mostly behind you in the rear view mirror. I have had some blips on the way (and many can testify to the bouncing that happens with our numbers) it is a part of the journey so try not to freak out. I don't think our consultants care too much about decimal places but an overall trend and staying in or around MMR i.e 0.1 CCYR.
Anyway just thought I would say hi, give my latest result and hopefully encourage any new comers to this very scary tiger of a disease that's tamed into a little perring kitten with time for the vast majority. And I also understand you will ask yourself are you part of that "Vast majority". It's all very normal stuff.
Much love
Alex