New memeber of our very select club! I mean these are lottery oods ...
I am 34, was admitted on april the 2nd at the hospital due to covid 19. Very early my doctors were worried about my wild blood panels and after two weeks figured out that I had something unrelated to covid and dismissed me with a couple of follow ups . Up to that point the only thing I knew I had was some sort of `blood disease`. During my last follow up my doctor dropped on my head that I had a blood cancer and when asked to elaborate she simply answered that it wasn't her speciality and that she couldn't tell me more. So I basically had to pull my records and find out that by an unapproved internal hospital test they found that I had CML withe blood cells at 46K.
Covid was a good thing improved my projected quality of life. I would have probably been diagnosed in a few years simply because I haven't had a blood panel (except for ISTs) in 16 years, I was healthy as an ox, haven't deat with the flu in years, no allergies or intolerances, So what was the point right, young dumb me ! Had to wait 3 months to see my oncologist because non essential care was cancelled due to the pandemy.
Fast forward to two weeks earlier I had a biopsy with my new doctor. I arrive 15 mn late, got lost in the hospital. He tells me before the procedure starts that the medication carries risks for the cardiovascular system and that I will get off the medication in a couple years and that it will never come back. With hindsight his messaging worries me, he didn't tell me that more than half the people relapse and had his eyes set on tasigna way before any genetic testing. Plus he never discussed my options.I felt rushed but put it on the fact that I got there late and he was probably a little annoyed. On august the 3rd, a week later, on a telephone appointement he tells me that the diagnosis is official, chronic phase, took him a whole 2mn, had my whole list of question ready, gave me short one word answers and couldn't hide his frustration. He called me at 12h05 and later found out that he ends his morning calls at noon. wich his why he was probably rushing. Made me feel terrible and eroded the little trust that I had in him. He's been a doctor for more than i've lived I don't doubt his competence but I question his methods.
I have been on tasigna for a couple of days. On the first I had nausea and dizziness and some cognitive weirdness,thank good on the second day it subsided. A few years of that would have been very trying. Now I have some water retention in the left leg and my right arm, nothing too bad as far as AEs. Manageable.
So two questions:
- After having read a few studies and understanding them at a layman's level, I see that tasigna carries added risks. Just 21 months of intake will increase the risk of particular cardiovascular issues tenfold compared to gleevec after 76 months intake. I welcome the chance of discontinuing the medication for any amount of time. I don't just want to live for the sake of it, I want some quality of life in my old age. Gleevec makes so much more sense even with side effects such as hair loss. So guys, I know they categorize us with sokal and we're all different, what would you do if you had a reset button? Should I accept the risk it carries since I probably don't fit the profile of their subject for the studies, I'm probably younger by decades with no comorbidity? I'm willing to continue provided that I can stop in a few years. But probably won't use Tasigna again If I relapse. What do you think?
-I'm not a millionaire with limitless ressources, and I understand that the doctor has to take care of me and plenty others. Plus I have to have the same empathy for him that I expect for him, he's probably swamped with work. But something doesn't sit right. I feel like I shouldn't be lorded over since I alone will be living with the consequences. I'm in North America and doctors have a very different style that I find arrogant. What should I expect and not expect from my doctors?Are my expectations reasonable?
Thanks everyone for taking the time to read and/or share and helping me limit my mistake :)